真是的。好怨老天为什如此折磨我。

明明生活过得好好的，却一直被梦魔缠着。

今天又梦倒他了。原本被遗忘的记忆又被唤醒。搞得我的心情一上一下。  也不知道为何觉得心好闷。 也不知道哪来的心痛。更加不明白为什末会心痛。到底在痛什？只不是成年往事，难道，自己真的还耿耿于怀？靠！他妈的！


我以经很让步了。可是，事情还是不照我的期待进行。靠！他妈的！

My life is as dull as it is. Waking at 9 + every morning ,heads to office before 11, Counting the minutes to 7 30 p.m , rushing home either to read my books or watches HBO before lights out at midnight.

It is so stagnant that because of a meaningless dream, my momentum is struck off balance.

How long ago since I last thought of him?

Those younger days as a nocturnal animal. Heading to the clubs, getting pissed drunk, being broke each day but still has to buy my own cigarettes. ( The era where cigarettes still come in small packs, at $3.60 for a packet of 10 sticks)

There was so much energy in that teenage body which now grew into an adult body with most parts heading south ( I need to get boobs lift, butts lift wadever soon). I was having a great time. And a bad time at the same time. Dumping my ex for a gay man. A gorgeous gay man. Who is as bitchy as Miss J. Alexander from America Next Top Model. Haha.

Don't be mistaken, thou i had this major crush on him for 5 & 1/2 years, I'm totally over it. Just that,I still refused to remove his picture of my cork board. Come on, there's nothing wrong with staring into a pretty face. It just that I cant belive how possibly I can be obsess with someone's face for 2008 days. I spent my youth thinking of his pretty face!

And look at me now. Heading towards my 1st quarter of a century. I'm as boring as Nancy Drew. I want to change. To break away.To be the party animal that I used to be. But now as an adult, I cannot be what I was back then.

I cant deny the complications & the responsibilities that was forced upon my adult self by god's will. ( It's all in the destiny) The feeling is a kid reaching into a cookie jar, drops the cookie jar. Cookie jar and cookies are broken into tiny pieces and the kid still want the cookie thou he will end up in hospital after eating them with the additional cookie jar leftovers.

Sobs. Sobs again for my sensitive soul. And that stupid dream which stirred up my memories.

I come to this conclusion, my journal shld also be able to store all my nibs & pieces of information i gather.

So...
If in Beijing, must go check out the hutong hotel known as 3+1 bedrooms
17 Zhangwang Hutong, Jiu Gulou Dajie 86-10/6404-7030
3plus1bedrooms.com

Oh holy almighty.

Had been so distracted by all the BLd from my sister. My mind cant focus on the right thing, Thou i tried hard.
It's just that Boys Love tracks are really really hilarious to listen & yet has this addicting quality.

You have no idea how many times I laugh out loud in the bus on my way home.

Today, I think because i was saved by lord! Maybe its my reward for reading the bible during the wkend,

Finally I have immediate response from Vivienne Westwood press office , London. I think all my previous emails might have ended up in their spam folder.
Oh man, Do you know how happy I am! I'm so extremly excited about the show in May!
Westwood! Westwood! Yeah!

Alritey, I gotta go and find the tracks for my event this friday.

Ciao ppl!

Just when I thought I can take a breather.

Upon boss's return, another event is already under preparation. On April 17th, another collaboration with local jewellery designer Marilyn Tan.

Goodbye to my planned KL trip over the Good Friday wkend.

And say hi to my local hairstylist. Was waiting in anticipation for Gino (KL) to trim my tresses. *SNIFF*  I need to find a cheaper hairstylist in Singapore!! Cant afford to splurge when the economy is so bleh. Even though my colleagues at TYAN Millenia Walk always highlight the fact that I can afford to spend because there's no fear of retrenchment but still. .. I dun think this remark is funny at all. There may be no 1/2 month bonus next year. Not getting a full 13th month is already bad enough. If there's not evenAll a 1/2 month bonus, oh STFU.

Meanwhile, am getting really excited for the Audi Fashion Festival. On the 6th May, Christian Lacroix is opening the show with its Haute Couture collection!!! How absolutely mind blowing!!! HAUTE COUTURE!!!! On this tiny island! Who is the lucky woman who can afford?The big ring earrings are really my kind of bling.

http://www.style.com/fashionshows/complete/S2009CTR-CLACROIX

Gareth Pugh is also one of the highlights of the show.
Though I still have yet convince myself ,do i or do i not like his collections but i'm really really curious at the kind of fabrics and pattern making skills adapted for his collections.Especially for his Spring / Summer 09 collection. It's of course totally out of the norm & ONLY MODELS look alike applies only but the construction of his clothes. How does he make the clothes the way they are?

 Picture from www.style.com


Of Close, the Vivienne Westwood, Anglomania line is the closing show for the festival. What a way to end it,  With all the youth essence & whimsical colors just leave you asking for more. Luckily, for all Vivienne Westwood fans, the Anglomania & Accessories line are available at TYAN at Orchard Central (opening in May) & TYAN ION (opening in July)
I am expecting my dear friends to come & share with me, my joy & love for fashion & to lessen the bulge of your purse.
There's lot of affordable wallets & accessories! Be like Nana!



This April, I aim  to catch   up with all my old friends. But first i must really take my eyes & mind off this new manga series, Hakkenden. I just found out I'm a SHOTA-CON!! I'm like into 2D 12yr boy. My god! I'm like Michael Jackson.

 And really sorry to Dorcas, for failing to attend baby Kerris's 1st month. Congrats to Richard for getting hitch. And hope grandpa will get well soon.

Friends to catch up in April.

Nino
Cleo
SiewSIm
Asmindah
Gallen
Gary & Chup
+1

Aiyah, but the person I really want to see is Uncle Gino ahhhhhhhh.

XOXO.

It's burning hot these few days!!!

Errr... I just wanna stay indoors & keep cool. Drink plenty of H2O & eat lots of fruits & ice to keep cool.

Am worried that Mingli might faint if she's out in the sun for too long. Well, you know her, she's fragile.
She's so nice to accompany me to pay respects to Jayme. & also be my Valentine date yesterday. Thanks babe. And you look great in prints.

It's eleven p.m. now. Am in my air-conditioned room, which is rather rare because I always believe in saving our dear planet resources & to prevent global warming. But no... today is just not the day to go green. And I'm suppose to be asleep, to rest my liver & other important organs but nope.... The thought of a working monday is enough to be a nightmare.

I wonder what's wrong with me lately. I always enjoyed my work though many times ,I felt like trashing up my computer & have a huge cat fight with some of the customers. But recently, I just dread like really damn dread to go to work.  Am i too exhausted ? Or I'm getting bad at multi-tasking? Or the enthusiasm to please my boss slowly evaporating out of my system? And if so, what's causing it? I felt that recently, there's more management , planning & IT work for me rather then dealing with fashion. When is the last time I fully appreciate a dress? The workmanship , the accessories, the other details which move me to tears & electrify me. Where are all this excitement now?

*Sigh* My life has slowly becoming a routine. (The same goes for most of my friends) Though, some of the people enjoy routines.
But I cant. I cant......
And thus, on weekends, I need my friends more than ever. Otherwise, I'll go mad.

If i do not know how to de-stress, Most likely am to go mad.
Which is not good, Cos if Karen's mad, Karen is violent & bad.

*sigh* *sigh* It's really a time to take a long vacation & to leave everything behind.

And please let it rain someday this week, I so want to wear my leopard print coat ... ...










 

After watching Brideswar with Gen & Karen on Monday, it brought along of mixed feelings for me. Anna Hathaway's role of EMMA & Kate Hudson's LIV , are just hilariously cool & sweet. Especially, the part when EMMA & Liv are on their way to walk down the aisle & both wanted each other to be there for each other but they cant cos they have their own wedding to attend. Ok, It's damn sissy but I was so emotional & I cried.

Now, the Bitch Club has existed for  more than a decade now.
Of course, time has been an obstacle and there're periods where we all disappeared into the black hole or just mobile malfunction & bad auto roaming services.

Busy work schedules, PMS & sometimes even mild depressions kept us away from each other once in awhile.

I had forgotton how great it feels to be surrounded by these 3 gals that have shared my teens years with me.

A long await CNY steamboat dinners & pictures brought back so much memories & all of us agreed that we just cant let go of anyone. Finally, the Bitch CLub re-united.

Of course, conversations are slightly different now.
With their partners included. And I'm still finding it hard to let go.
To share my girlfriends with anybody else. Well, some of their bfs have higher eq & let us have our GF moments but some just ... ...

And eventually, the gals are all going to get married & have kids!!! Argh, more sharing!
It's time to loosen up the strings, babe.
I'll promise to be nicer to all your partners .And promise to behave if your other side of the deal give in too... ...

Ah, Galfriends. They are really the best things that I could "own". I love you gals.

1St Jan 2009

Another year of the new, old resolutions lay out to be completed for the year and left forgotten in the upcoming months.

Year 2008 had been a ride. I was feeling IT for 2008. It had been an emotional overrun for the past 365 days.

Let's recall....

Jan 08     Slaved at work. & at home, Making all those sugary sweet treats and staying away from all those cookies & pineapple tarts after.

Feb 08     Lost a dear friend.

Mar 08      Had a gd time celebrating Gen's 24th birthday.

April 08    Work like crazy. 1st fashion show with Cat Ong & kena food poisoning.

May 08     Also work like crazy. For a whole month.

June 08  Lots of old friends came home. And many birthday surprises.

July 08    First trip to Germany. Memorable. To a certain extend.

Aug 08    Bernard came home ,had a great 2 weeks bonding session.

Sept 08   Pocket abit of $ during Sg 1st F1.

Oct 08     Lost my memory. So properly work like crazy again.

Nov 08   Emo month. As Jayme will have turn 24 if she's still around...

Dec 08  Even more friends return home this time.
               Attend EOY, sisters' bonding session. Oh, And yes, GUNDAM . Alle for Xmas.
               But work gets crazier. Get thru the month being part Alicia, part Karen.


Then its 2009. Somehow it just feels like an overstretch 08.
Lots of plans , plans, plans.
But how much will I achieve this year?

I was totally whisked off to the land of Gundams due to my sisters at home especially twith the youngest one who had declared her latest marital status as "widow of deceased Lockon Stratos"

Wondered if 10 years down the road, will she remembered of her howling and tears infront of the TV & PC? I was totally amused by her "house of Ang , state of emergency status " which went on for more than an hour the first night she watched epi 23.

I really laughed my lungs out. still laughing

 Not to mention the height of my excitement today. 

Having my haircut by Cat's recommended Japanese Stylist later before meeting my sisters at EXPO for their cosplay event. Which I haven't support Sam for the longest time.
And hopefully to get my hands on some artistic merchandise.

It had been a great week, though as usual , life is not always a smooth road. I was so sick with flu. *BLEH*  It  is comforting to know that at least I didn't walk alone. Having received a phonecall from a dear friend from overseas  on Tuesday    really   give me the perks. And dinner with a long time mentor was so encouraging, a reminder of the future that I seeked and sometimes forgotten.

It had been a great week.

My dad likes High School Musical & has conveniently invited me & my sisters to watch it with him.

I'm like WTF?

He still carried on about how nice it is to watch HSM3 in the cinema, with all the singing & dancing.

I mean, Yes, dad, you are utterly cool and & a great buddy to chill out with. But sometimes, just sometimes, you got to stop surprising me like that. HSM? My god! I was petrified for 3 secs.

Enough said.

Oh, and belated thank-you for the watch.